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why is it so impossible to change? i've been trying for hours and hours and i've still got no where. bummer.


p.s. there is way more to this post than you think.

in a fortnight,

i'm gunna be away from this miserable land and head to the "free world". wahey.
bare excitedddddddd.

but all the best people are.

a simple cup of tea.

and how happy it's made me.

amen to mr twinings.

stop trying to act like her, stop trying to be influenced by someone else. stop acting like something your not. please. it's just plain stupid.

wow,

i didn't realise until today how much we've parted. the occasional fun moment is then met by a brick wall, where it all ends. one lesson is all i get of you and your craziness now. and i miss it too much! but this is partly my fault, for not accepting invitations out side of school, for not making the effort to text or talk. and it's such a shame, because we used to be - are - such close friends. and i miss you so much, so sorry if i've ignored you, or not made you feel like the loved person you are! and especially as you're most probably going to be gone when september comes, so i should get my act together and make an effort. and i will. i promise.

why are you so perfect?

ulcers:

so bloody annoying, but strangley addictive.

wilderness

so beautiful, yet so unkown to us.

let me wonder in pure wilderness, where i can get lost in the paths of life.

what's the time mr wolf?

sorry.

we're all sold out.

expectations were sky high,

but they managed!

p.s. i told you it wasn't going to be much amy ;-)

fallacy.

blog's give the wrong impression off about people.
i've made myself sound like such a depressive loner, when really that's not true? generally i am happy about most things, and i do have amazing friends. yet the only time i write blogs, which happens to be quite often, is when i am in a "fuck my life" mood. but i do seem to emphasise stuff way too much. small things that should be insignificant are made to seem a lot bigger in my eyes. but fuck it, i've decided, from now on, i will do a happy blog when i am feeling shit, rather then venting my feelings on here. with the slight exception, that can only be dealt with a ranting blog, of course.

why is it that i feel happy one moment, then the next you read,see,hear something and you feel so left and betrayed again. and the funny thing is, i havn't even been betrayed. just left. left behing with all the old photos and memories that are too insignificant for you to bother remember. the annoying this is, i don't think you see it like this. i reckon you see it like you're life is expanding, growing, moving on. but to me, it's totally significant. because i never wanted that to happen. i didn't want to be the donkey at the back of the stable.s i wanted to be the one that ran over the hills with you, that ate, talked, laughed with you. but maybe not. sometimes it happens, sometimes we talk and talk and talk. but mostly, it's just me sitting back, observing the situation unfolding before my eyes. and i don't want to have to be the one to make the effort. it should be both of us. but the thing is i don't want to drift away like just another cloud in your life. i want to be the sun that sticks with you, forever, even though you can't always feel and see it. whatta rant and a half this is, and you probably won't even realise it's about you to be honest. so this was pretty pointless. but fuck it, it needs to be said.

sometimes it's nice to feel appreciated.

summer lovin'

wow, the sun has been shining for the last two days and i hope it stays like this! except plus 10 degrees maybe? it's stil freezing in the mornings, which is weird, but i like how sunny it is and how blue the sky is! this summer is going to be amazingggggg! i don't want to miss out on anything exciting happening between now and summer, but i want life on fast forward for a while, just so it hurries along! i can't wait!

two's a couple,

i never knew:

- ice hockey could be so exciting!
- i could act like a 3 year old again and get excited over going to the airport.
- i would get bored of facebook.
- i would look forward to a monday.
- i could be so pathetic to make a countdown to my holiday.
- that i ever would make a revision timetable - but it's been done!
- i would actually want to revise.
- revision is so dull - ok, i lie: i knew that one.

8 things i never knew. but now i do!

you learn something knew every day.