just living in a little town called hypocrisy.

i'm going to follow in the lead of my laaavvley friends and write a list.
a list of what i aspire to have achieved by the time i'm 20,30, ok 40:

- to have made myself proud in gcse's and generally anything. because others may say "well done" and plant a smile on their faces, but deep down they are gloating that they got more A*s than you, but i want to be proud of myself. and not care what others have got.
- to have fun in 6th form, and not get over powered by work, because that sucks.
- to go to university and party hardddddddd! aswell as getting a good degree, obviously ;)
- to go travelling and see the world in all its glory, and not just all the crappiness we see and hear about. i want to experience the wonders of the world; the northern lights, a botswana sky, the great barrier reef, the lord of the rings mountains (and yes, i do know that's not what they are really called...), the rainforests, see the great lakes, the canyons, waterfalls and tiny mountain streams. i want to see the beauty of everything, and neglect anything negative. because i have decided that if we only live once, we may aswell try and reach for the stars, and seeing as this is near to impossible, i'm just going to go find heaven on earth and look up at the stars, instead of floating around between them.
- find joseph gordon-levitt, matthew morrison, mitch hewer and alex pettyfer and shag all four and possibly marry all four too ;)
- live abroad, i dont know where or how long for, but i want to experience another way of life.
- travel round all 50 (or is it 51?) states of america in a campavan.
- get the perfect suburbian house, perfect garden, perfect dog, perfect husband and have 3 beautiful, smart perfect kids. basically, i want life to be perfect.
- to be a bajillionaire but give loads to charity, so i feel like i've achieved something in life instead of spending it on gucci, prada, a billion houses and a private jet - which to be honest doesn't sound too bad either.
- when i'm old to have a pub in the lakedistrict with lizzie, the hungry goose and the lonely camel. we're gunna be the cool granmas with cool grandad husbands who drive steam boats across windermere. beautiful.
- to die painlessly, quickly and by being able to say goodbye to my family.
- to discover if it is true, if there is an after life. what happens, if we really "go towards the light". if there is a heaven, a hell, if God exists, etcetera etcetera...




i hope heaven is a house like this. just because it looks like it zoomed out of Stepford Wives.

and i have one more final dream; to shout Penis as loud as we can in a park, with my perfect guy. and if you havn't seen (500) days of summer then you most probably will think i'm kinda weird, but emma will understand this one, they are the cutest couple in the world. i want to be them to be quite honest!