it's funny, isn't it?

i love it when we all sit in the form room at lunch time, in our little group. makes me feel at home, with the people i admire and love. i don't want that to end, but i guess, where there is a starting line, there has to be a finish line.




it's funny, isn't it? how you can be in such a busy place, people surrounding you, and you still feel lonely. i think that i have a pretty amazing group of friends, but sometimes, just occasionaly, you see two of them laughing together, having a 'private' chat in the corner, and you just think, "where do i belong?".
i hate that feeling. hate it with a passion. of course, this is hardly ever, just someitmes, like yesturday for example, i sat there and i looked at 2 of my friends, who i used to be so so close with, and i sat there and thought "i miss them". and it's true, i still talk to them pretty much everyday, still smile at them in the corridor, but just somehow, we aren't as close any more.

my blogs seem pretty repetitive and depressing, i've figured. but that isn't really what i'm like? one day, i will do the happiest one everrr, just to show you that i can be happy, just its coincedence that whenever i write these, i have something on my mind.
shame, eh?